tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32411614422033337382024-03-12T18:16:33.443-07:00One Title Cannot Cover ItMehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.comBlogger45125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-32613181960870501692008-10-04T07:00:00.000-07:002008-10-04T07:25:00.249-07:00VP Debate and my LifeThe VP debate was two nights ago (I think...), so I just wanted to record my thoughts for posterity's sake. I'm really not all that concerned with the politics of the debate...because its just two people who don't really have any decision making capabilities talking about issues that have already been talked about - and their views on those issues dont even matter because that's not the VPs job.<br /><br />Palin is so dumb that I actually feel bad. Aside from the fact that it seemed like she had memorized lines that she tried to fit in wherever she could, she dodged a lot of questions...and when she DID answer questions, her opinions sucked. And so did her comeback. Palin, "don't cha know" isn't a come back...especially not in your goofy accent.<br /><br />A note to both candidates: I can see why you <span style="font-style: italic;">wouldn't support</span> gay marraige. I know that there are a lot of personal reasons that you wouldn't support it. But your reasons are just that - PERSONAL. <span style="font-style: italic;">Your</span> personal reasons should not dictate <span style="font-style: italic;">my</span> personal life. I'm not saying that you should support gay marraige, but I am saying that you shouldn't oppose it. We're told to seperate church and state; what more are your personal views then just a form of your religious ones? When a matter is between you and God or you and your conscience, it should be seperate from public law. An ammendment to define marraige as between one man and one woman is just not OK - it's unconstitutional on so many levels that I won't even get into it. If we want to play with the Constitution, though, we should recognize that it leaves issues such as gay marraige up to the states.<br /><br />Ok. That's the end of my rant.<br /><br />I miss camp a lot. That's all.Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-76475026839372057572008-09-18T11:36:00.000-07:002008-09-18T11:42:19.339-07:00Obviously, I'm not going to delete it, but I regret my last post. I was pretty shallow. That feeling lasted until I posted the blog and got it out of my system. I'm back to being head-over-heals for VGBF. He's coming to visit me in a few months. I'm very happy.<br /><br />He and I talked again yesterday and today, and it was just nice and nonthreatening conversation. We just talked. It was awesome.<br /><br />On to school:<br />I hate it. I want to leave.<br />My ideal situation would be to go to medical school in the UK, which means finishing this application, taking the UKCAT (which costs $170 and is a 2 hour drive from me), finding someone to write me a letter of recommendation, and then GETTING IN.<br />More likely situations include going to community college for resp. therapy or paramedicine OR staying in this shit hole.Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-60364972380819771012008-09-16T06:53:00.000-07:002008-09-16T06:58:31.639-07:00WTF. Seriously?Ok. So I hate college. I hate the people, and the place. I want to leave. But where do I go? I want to go to school in England, but I'm apparantly underqualified (which I think is a misunderstanding of the American educational system) and I don't have the money but I NEED to get out of here. Thegoddamn test that I'd need to take to even apply is like $170. Kill me.<br /><br />And my VGBF is being a douche. He doesn't initiate any conversation with me, and when I try to he gives one word answers. It's like talking to the fucking wall. And seriously - I don't want to make it sound like he owes me, but I paid to get his plane ticket switched, and he borrowed $250 from me before he left...and hasn't paid me back. If he bothered to maintain our friendship I wouldnt be bothered, but now I feel like he just used me.Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-1515938284550440412008-09-08T20:23:00.000-07:002008-09-08T20:33:54.562-07:00Urrg. My life.<br /><br />I came out to the two girls at school who I'm close with. Obviously, they handled it like babies and facebook stalked people to try to get information. It was so irritating.<br /><br />I talked to my very good British (VGBF) friend again today for a while. Basically, I miss him so much that it hurts, so talking to him is like an escape from the pain. He's still planning on coming to visit during break, so God-willing, it will happen. Already, though, I'm thinking about how tough it's going to be to say goodbye again. (BTW he recently updated his status on facebook to mention that he missed me).<br /><br />I miss camp, too. I can't even describe it. If i could drop out of school today and go back to camp, I would. I would give anything to be at camp for my entire life, preferable with my VGBF.<br /><br />I really want to leave the country. I'm thinking about possibly transferring into a school in the UK, but I think I might be too late for next school year and I definitely can't afford it... I just don't want to be in my school anymore. I'm at the point where I would even consider dropping out and becoming a medic at community college and then trying to move overseas. Maybe if I study abroad next year it will get this feeling out of me...I don't think so, though. I need to get out of this place.<br /><br />I also want to go to England to visit, but I don't have the money for that. Maybe if I ask for money for Christmas and my birthday, I'll be able to go over between school-ending and camp-beginning.<br /><br />IDK I'm done typing I think. I'll write more when I feel like it.Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-82950411015162456562008-08-27T18:39:00.001-07:002008-08-27T19:05:26.010-07:00So today was dumb.<br />I had class all morning, then one in the afternoon.<br />I didn't talk to like anyone who I would have liked to talk to. That's a lie.<br />One of my friends from camp was texting me before. I'm waiting for her to get home to go on AIM so we can talk more indepth.<br /><br />One of my friends is moving to an island-nation called Vanuatu. Apparently, in Vanuatu, they have under-water mailboxes and waterproof post cards.<br /><br />My very good friend from England is going to try to visit during my Christmas break - I'm SO excited!<br /><br />What else?<br /><br />Tomorrow I have a two-and-a-half hour class that I have NO INTEREST in being in. I need to take it, technically - I think - but I'm pissed.<br /><br />I've been studying/reading/doing homework all day. I don't know what else to do. I'm that bored.Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-92220651452812829922008-08-26T05:46:00.001-07:002008-08-26T06:49:20.903-07:00I forgot...So, I forgot about my blog. Oops. Honest mistake.<br /><br />Now, I'm at college. I'm so bored that I needed something to do. So, I'm blogging.<br /><br />Camp was seriously incredible. Probably later today I'll post some specific stories, but for now I'll go for a quick overview: I love inner city kids. I love the counselors/staff at the camp. I love the camp. I love the program of the camp. I love taking care of kids. It was a perfect fit.<br /><br />Camp ended for me a week-and-a-half ago so I could pack for school and leave and stuff. I loved camp - if I could do it year-round, I totally would...and I would drop out of school to do it. I had to say goodbye to everyone at camp, which was really hard. The one person who I am still totally in love with, though, had a family emergency and needed to catch a plane back to England, so he came home with me that night so I could drive him to the airport. He, being a straight male, is not into me, but we still were really close. I'm like an emotional wreck over it, still. It's hard knowing that I'm never going to see him again, also.<br /><br />So this college thing sucks. There is literally nothing to do. I real blogs all day. And eat. And sleep.Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-61074221018392212792008-06-21T20:34:00.001-07:002008-06-21T20:35:57.509-07:00CAMP IS AWESOME!<br />I'm soooo happy.<br />That's really all I have to say - I am just in bliss!Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-32687932660865074992008-06-12T08:29:00.000-07:002008-06-12T08:35:53.284-07:00OK, so this is my last post before I go to camp. I think I'm regretting the fact that I'm going to be leaving, but I'm also really anxious to get out of my house. Things are just starting to get good (the person who I really wanted to notice me has noticed me, and apparently isn't opposed) but I also need some change. Weird.<br /><br />I am looking forward to being able to work with pediatric patients all summer - I like kids, and I really don't see many pediatric pts in EMS (which I consider a good thing cause I'd rather kids not get hurt). So I think this will be fun, challenging, and a good experience.<br /><br />So, goodbye blog... until my day off, at least.Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-67269355257038977262008-06-11T08:18:00.000-07:002008-06-11T08:26:36.983-07:00I just flipped out on the teller from my local bank. I tried to cash my graduation checks, and they wouldn't let me because, according to their records, I am a minor and therefore a parent or guardian must co-sign checks for me to get cash. That's ridiculous. Aside from the fact that I am not a minor (I am 18), the checks are made out to me, not my parents. I cashed $1,000 in checks the other day without a co-signature. I can get forcibly drafted into the Army (which I'm not necessarily opposed to), but I can't possibly cash a check, because that's just ridiculous. I can drive a two thousand pound motor vehicle which could literally kill tens of people, but cashing a check is just too much for me to handle. I can be employed, make my own money, and be completely self-sufficient, but I'm not allowed to use the money that I earn. I got in her face and was like "Princess, if you had an emergency, I could be the sole provider in the back of the ambulance. I'm allowed to have that much responsibility from the state, but you don't think I should be allowed to have my own money?" She told me she was going to call the police.Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-27193616426310865812008-06-10T06:16:00.000-07:002008-06-10T06:29:26.488-07:00You know it's too hot in your house when you wake up dehydrated, simply because "sleeping" doesn't allow you to be drinking enough water. I think I might live in the only house in the modern world without central a/c. True story.<br /><br /><br />I am so ridiculously excited for camp! WooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooMehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-43026307134075638722008-06-09T14:03:00.001-07:002008-06-09T14:08:15.843-07:00Holy Shit BallsIt is hot out. We got an e-mail forwarded from our state's office of emergency management, and it said that the heat index is going to be at and above 105 degrees today and tomorrow. Yesterday, it was 102. Bad news.<br /><br />Yesterday was Town Day and it sucked. It was so hot, and there was such a little turn out. I literally slept in the back of an ambulance for a large portion of the day.<br /><br />I've also hung out with this kid who I like on Friday night, last night, and we were going to hang out today but they canceled. Story of my life.<br /><br />Camp is in four days! I'm so excited. I'm all packed.Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-53421722642850863962008-06-08T02:04:00.000-07:002008-06-08T02:09:01.651-07:00I am a crazy person.I have been awake since 4 am. No real reason. Fucking fantastic.Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-76988589090177344392008-06-07T06:56:00.000-07:002008-06-07T07:14:33.229-07:00The Loose Ends of My LifeCamp Starts In 6 Days!<br />There are two weeks of staff training, though. WTF?!? I really don't want to have to do all the real staff training, but whatever. I wish I got there three days early to organize the health lodge, talk with the medical director, and otherwise get ready.<br /><br />I'm still excited about when the kids get there. I've been singing camp songs at the top of my lungs all week.<br /><br />I really hope no one gets too hurt... obviously, some cuts and scrapes and the occasional bee sting is inevitable, but I'm really hoping that no kid gets too sick/hurt.<br /><br />Luckily, my day off is going to be from 8p on Saturday to 8p on Sunday. That means I might be able to get out to the Rocky Horror Picture Show on a weekend and I will be able to ride my shift ever Sunday.<br /><br />So my shift tomorrow - I don't know how its going to go. First of all, it's a big event in the town that I work in (herein called "Town"). So, they're expecting Town Day to draw in upwards of 20,000 people this year. It's going to be 94 degrees, and isolated thunder storms. Great. To top it off, I'll be running the calls for the town during the event, too - all five of our rigs (plus our heavy rescue and probably all three boats) will be there, but I'm on the duty crew on one of them, the others will sit there or be used as needed. So, with the way it goes, I'll either be there or not be there all day (because I either get back-to-back-to-back-times-seven calls in a shift, or nothing). Beyond that, even, it's Puerto Rican Day tomorrow. That means that its going to be IMPOSSIBLE to get to the trauma center (which is where we also bring the majority of the charity care patients as well as the cardiac pts, and any other really sick people), all because of the parade. So, this means we need to try to navigate around this nearby city to get to the hospital. That's a problem.<br /><br />I went out for milkshakes at the diner last night with two people who I never really saw outside of school. It was actually really fun.Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-26095958552295001522008-06-04T11:25:00.000-07:002008-06-04T11:29:39.668-07:00Damn you, Lap-BandOf course, right after I posted how well my lap band is going, it goes south.<br />I have been PBing every time I eat anything since yesterday. I don't know why - I've been chewing very well, not been drinking while eating, and eating good food. WTF. The Great Spirit of LAGB hates me.<br /><br />FYI "LAGB" is "laparoscopic adjustable gastric banding" in the fat people communityMehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-74194654039301440432008-06-04T07:02:00.000-07:002008-06-04T07:14:40.989-07:00I graduated.Despite my lack of presence, I graduated last night. Apparently they didn't get my message about not attending, because they still called my name and my sources tell me it was awkward.<br /><br />Everyone keeps asking me how much I regret not going. I don't. I prefered to not go. I have no regret about that. Not going to prom on the other hand...<br /><br />I guess I'll mention one more thing before I have to leave to go to the dentist:<br />I bought a new stethoscope, which I think I mentioned that I was stalking in a previous blog - the <a href="http://www.kila.com/specssingle.html">Kila Labs Single Head Stethoscope</a> (which looks almost identical to the Littmann Master Cardiology). It's actually an awesome stethoscope. The tubing looks a little goofy because it's cross section is an oval rather then a circle (but the hole down the middle is still a circle, so IDK). All in all, it's acoustics are much more clear then my Littmann Classic II SE, and it's about 1/3 of the price of the Classic II SE... and about 1/10 of the price of the Master Cardiology. Although I have never used a Littmann Master Cardiology and cannot compare the two, this scope is definitely much better <span style="font-style: italic;">for my ears</span> then the Classic II SE and the Select. I honestly don't know why our ambulances carry spragues when this scope is on the market for $25. Also, if you read this, take this review with a grain of salt. I'm an EMT who has tried to self-learn some of the basic points of heart sounds, so I'm no expert. I definitely think this scope is a good choice for EMTs, Medics, and probably most Nurses who will be using a scope for BPs, breath sounds, and maybe dabble into heart sounds.<br /><br />That's all. I have to go to the dentist to get a filling.Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-51835560186688684012008-06-01T13:32:00.000-07:002008-06-01T13:36:35.606-07:00Long day. 7 calls. 6 hour shift. Yeah.<br /><br />Nothing to speak of, but one call brought upon an awkward situation.<br />We found a guy on the side of the road (he was AOx3). Suddenly, an old man pulls over asking if there is any need for a Catholic Priest. I guess it was a nice effort, but it was just so awkward.Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-28838764922063964862008-05-31T08:35:00.000-07:002008-05-31T08:40:55.129-07:00It has been about 8 months since my lap-band surgery. In August, I wore size 40 pants.<br />I just put on a pair of jean shorts so I could run out, pull the patio umbrellas out of their tables, and cover the pool before the wind picked up (theres one hell of a storm coming, apparantly). I got back in, and changed out of my wet clothes. My shorts didn't look familiar (keep in mind, I just did a total cleaning of my room which hasn't really been done for four or five years). Where did these shorts come from? I looked at the tag. Size 36. They are from 8th grade. They fit. That felt good.Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-8090533899842094232008-05-29T19:38:00.000-07:002008-05-29T19:41:56.463-07:00My shopping habit is kind of weird. I stalk things on the internet. Literally, stalk them. I'm stalking something new.<br /><br />I've been stalking the Kila Single Head Stethoscope. The price is right, and everything I've seen online has been positive. I think I might actually buy it. I don't know why I just posted a blog about that.<br />This is the link: http://www.kila.com/specssingle.html<br /><br />I don't even carry a stethoscope. My thought is that I'd use it at my camp. I might, actually.<br />I'm a loser.Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-2208952306284648682008-05-29T19:32:00.001-07:002008-05-29T19:32:30.563-07:00WOOOOO I don't have to go to graduation! My parents aren't making me!<br />Life is good.Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-60006036054526325062008-05-29T08:02:00.000-07:002008-05-29T08:26:50.125-07:00Oh...the other thing, I've been doing a lot of research on other assessments to make sure that I know what's going on with my kids at camp. I don't want to send kids to the doctor or hospital if they don't need to go. There's a lot of stuff out there. If you have any links, or assessment tips for anything (from ortho to internal med stuff) please post!Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-45689561886160830482008-05-29T06:49:00.001-07:002008-05-29T07:58:17.479-07:00stupid, stupid, stupid....I do stupid things all the time. I always make stupid choices.... but I rarely realize how stupid a choice is this soon.<br /><br />For the past three months, I was kind of "on-the-fence" in terms of prom. I kinda wanted to be there, but I didn't want to go. I didn't want to deal with the drama, pay for a tux or limo, or have to find a place to stay down the shore (herein, dts). The straw that broke the camel's back was that I couldn't go with the person who I wanted to go with. If I could have gone with person-unknown, I totally would have gone. I wanted to be at prom and see everyone and experience it all. I wanted to be dts like a normal jersey kid. I had four or five people who I know would have gone with me at a moment's notice, and I would have had a lot of fun with...but I was stubborn - it wasn't the one person I wanted to go with, so I didn't go. I totally regret not going.Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-19941238260912912432008-05-27T20:56:00.000-07:002008-05-27T21:01:11.367-07:00From the looks of it, I'll be able to do an advanced EMT-Critical Care closer to college next year. That's a step in the right direction - I'll be able to intubate, start IVs, etc. According to Wikipedia, it's basically comparable to Paramedic, without as many standing orders, and more of a need to establish online medical control. It's at least a good option, especially since I'm going to be a doctor in 7/8 years...I don't need to be a paramedic, I'd just like to have more ability to help people in the pre-hospital setting (which I intend to continue in as a physician)Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-70386660827814216352008-05-27T17:41:00.000-07:002008-05-27T17:58:46.520-07:00Something I just read.I can't find the link, now, but I was just reading about how some states are considering making freedom more accessible for prisoners to cut state spending. By getting people out of jail (through lessening sentences, making parole easier, etc), they save taxpayers money, theoretically. What about the taxpayers' safety?!?<br /><br />This is how I feel: prisoners should spend their entire sentence with PUBLIC SAFETY, not economics, in mind. If that costs too much, then states should cut down the cost of providing that service to the community, not cut down on the service.<br /><br />I feel like the current prison system takes responsibility away from the prisoner. If the prisoner wants cable TV or porno, then they should be responsible for paying for it, just like everyone else. I should not be supporting a prisoner's porn-addiction with my tax money. Just because a prisoner really likes to watch the Golden Girls doesn't mean I should have to pay for their cable bill. I understand that prisoners have rights, but why should someone who broke the law infringe on my rights? Fuck having air conditioning in prisons - the people who are paying for it don't even have a/c in their houses! What? The prisoner can't afford their own cable or air conditioning?!? TOUGH SHIT - they should have thought about that before they broke the law!<br />So now all of our other state-programs (such as education, etc) should suffer, along with our taxes?<br /><br />I really don't understand.Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-20747720740111673152008-05-27T11:00:00.000-07:002008-05-27T11:09:50.747-07:00UpdateIt's not going to work out.<br /><br />I need to keep looking.<br /><br />It's not as flexible as I was hoping, because they still make you check in tri-weekly to do hands-on stuff (which I think is much needed, but I was hoping that it would be able to be done at a closer hospital that would sponsor me for the eventual field work.)<br /><br />Maybe I'm looking on the wrong side of the border. I should find something closer to my college (in NY) to do, since my reciprocity for EMT-B is currently in the works. If only the state of NY didn't make it so difficult to find training opportunities in that particular area!Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3241161442203333738.post-90952823807072483682008-05-27T09:37:00.000-07:002008-05-27T09:44:42.727-07:00Medic61 is awesome.Medic61 (aka the only person who reads my blog) posted a comment on my last post about how if it's meant to be, it'll happen...or something.<br />I read the comment. Out loud, I yelled "bullshit!" and I walked away. No more then 10 minutes later, I checked my e-mail. There's an e-mail from a community college in South Jersey (about two hours away). Oh shitballs, I thought, I'm not going to goddamn community college two hours from my house... I'm already going to a four-year college in NY. I was going to just delete it, but I accidentally missed the little check-box thing and the e-mail opened. The e-mail talked about this opportunity that this particular college has to take PARAMEDIC classes online (for the classroom based classes, which is like two classes), then the ones that require that I be on campus during the summer. How sweet is that?<br />I definitely have to look into it, because its a two hour drive... but Medic61 is like a prophet or something.Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09166155875824587291noreply@blogger.com2